Friday, 18 May 2012 @ Alario Center at 6:00pm

Today has finally come! I’m going to miss everyone. I hope most of us can keep in touch. Never forget the memories we made together. Hope that some of us can make more memories on our continued journey to life. Love you, Class of 2012!<3

high school is about to end. i have five days left. my last week this week. it’s so sad! i’m going to cry. i know it. i just hope everything goes right, and i hope we all keep in touch. i’m going to miss everything. ):

this is going to be so unorganized, but idgaf! feel free to read.

i don’t know how to explain it. i don’t know what it is. it’s so complicating to understand. like seriously. i have no one in my life. no one i could talk to. no one that talks to me on a regular basis. no one that knows me. i know no one. i know of a lot of people, but i don’t really know them. it’s so sad when i’m alone and thinking about it. because it is true! living in this world with all these emotions and trying to play the game of life is hard. you win some, you lose some. you never know what is going to come next in your life. you seem to be having fun one moment but then the next moment you are stuck at home, bored. getting sick of not doing anything with yourself. when i try to make plans, they never seem to work. either the people i try to make plans with are busy, or they just don’t want to do anything. i try so hard to be a good friend, but it always seem to fail. i guess i’m not trying. i guess i’m not the type of person that can be open. i sometimes think of why i came onto this planet. there are so many people in this world, everyone being different. i’m different. you are different. the numerous amount of people in this world is crazy. i just wish everyone would just be happy and stop all drama. you just have to accept everyone for who they are. some just need a reality check and needs to see how they are acting around others, but some just can’t see that. they just want to feel superior over other. they just want others to feel down. they never want to say hi to your face when you pass them. like seriously. say hi and wear a smile on your face everyday. but sometimes you can’t, because it is hard to smile everyday. you don’t know what happened in a person’s life. you don’t know them. nobody knows anybody, and i’m being real. i don’t know myself. it’s hard to try to walk on this earth, waking up everyday until it is your last. i always want to live in the moment and remember everything that happens in my life, but sometimes it’s just dull and boring. like i really don’t know what to do with myself. i really don’t. i can’t answer any questions right, and i just feel dumb. i don’t know what i want to be. maybe a photographer, but how am i supposed to do it. where am i going to get the money from? this world is all about money. everything just keeps increasing day by day, minute by minute. i feel bad for the poor, but i can’t do anything about it. i feel bad when i want money, but i don’t have it. i feel that the world is too caught up with themselves and not realizing anything. and if you get mad over the littlest things, then get over yourself because if i see something wrong, i will fix it, so i don’t see why being mad at me will help anything. people are too stuck up and think they know everything, but y’all really don’t. you just have to understand how to accept it. and accept the change. change is happening right now. it will always happen because nothing ever stays the same. everybody changes, and that is a fact. i really miss how life use to be. so chill and happy. everyone was so nice and friendly and not caught up into anything. but now everything is changed. everyone is having issues and problems. everyone seems to be too caught up in relationships and drugs and money. like i don’t know. i really don’t. school is another thing. i love it so much, but then i hate it at the same time. i just feel that some people don’t get enough credit for what they do. and some people get too much credit for doing nothing. and i feel that a lot of teachers are there just to be there, and some teachers are really there to teach. i feel that every students needs to be there to learn and have spirit to go to school, but some just don’t have that. they are different. it’s hard to get it, because everyone wants to do what they want, and they don’t care. only if they cared and though about what they are doing. seriously. all the school work is kind of ridiculous, but it really isn’t that hard to do your own work. i try my absolute best to do my own work even when i don’t know anything. sometimes i just copy other people’s work because i just need to and can’t seem to do it because i have no idea what i’m doing because i don’t understand it. but other times, i do do it by myself, and i feel proud. and i feel accomplished. and that’s what i want to feel. i just need to figure out somehow how to deal with everything. all these thoughts keep running through my mind, but i never seem to let it out. i just keep it in and let it build and build until the bubble can’t hold anything else. that one last thing until it burst. but no. it just keeps building up from here. i don’t know how to let it out. i don’t know what to let out. i don’t know what i’m saying. i just feel like i need to type something right now because i can’t do anything. i feel worthless. but then again, i can be someone greater. i can be whatever i want. i can do whatever i want. i just have to keep dreaming and putting my mind to it, and let nothing stop me. well, i don’t know what else to say. so i’m going to stop because this could probably go on forever. i just miss and love a lot of people. YOLO. real talk.

Anonymous asked: What are your plans for after college?

i guess my plan after college is to hopefully start deciding how i want my photography studio and get the prepared and hopefully have enough money to open one. i plan on becoming better everyday. and i also would like a family. so yea. i guess time will tell. (:

Anonymous asked: This is really random and all, but what is your favorite color? Just curious.

GREEN! there is something about it that i love. i also like black, white, and blue. and sometimes all the other colors. lol!

Anonymous asked: How often do you check your tumblr?

i check my Tumblr whenever i feel bored and have nothing else to do. like now! i never get questions, so this was nice. i would love more questions to answer.

so it’s exactly two months until i am done with high school. i can’t believe it. time has flown by. i’m going to miss everything. seriously. i can’t put into words how much i’m going to miss my friends and teachers and the school itself. sigh. i dunno right now. everything will work out for the best, i hope. and i hope everyone has a lovely and great life. and a happy one. do something that will make you happy. that’s all that you need right now. life is short and you never know when it is time to say goodbye. make today last because tomorrow isn’t promised. yea!

February 10, 11, 12, 2012

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life hasn’t been the same. it’s changing. i’m changing? sigh. ):